One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began.
~ from "The Journey" by Mary Oliver
I've been trying to make a very big decision for about a year now. And I've finally decided.
I waited a long time before writing this post -- partly because it would make the decision real (things aren't real until they are on the internets, right?), and partly because I didn't know how this space would fit in.
To make a long story short (and to rip the band-aid off, so to speak):
I've decided to return to medical school and bring my art-making back to the realm of hobbies and self-therapy where I enjoy it most.
This decision was not an easy or clear one for me. I loved my time living as an artist in San Francisco, painting and scheming and exploring the city. In fact, there were many times I felt absolutely certain I would never go back to medical school.
I'm not going to go into the nitty gritty details of my agonizing and flip-flopping over this decision (plus I think I've blocked most of them out), but I wanted to share a few pieces of writing that helped me:
Whitney English's interview on Latrina's blog - on the difference between purpose and passion
Cheryl Strayed's Dear Sugar column "The Ghost Ship That Didn't Carry Us" - on big decisions and letting go of the options we don't choose (p.s. the whole column and Dear Sugar book is fantastic)
Sheryl Sandberg's book Lean In - on many things, including being unafraid of big undertakings and not over-planning for the future
This will be my last post here, and it is certainly bittersweet. I will miss the space, but mostly I will miss the lovely and unexpected community that came with it. Thank you to everyone who has been so welcoming and supportive of me. I really can't thank you enough.
I am both excited and terrified to start (re-start?) this new phase of my life, and see where it carries me. I hope you will stay in touch, and perhaps follow along on my new adventure over on Instagram.
Oh, and before I go -- one final sale! I wanted to thank you all, plus celebrate my transition back health care by donating the proceeds to a favorite non-profit: Partners in Health. Use code ARTPARTY over at my Etsy shop for 20% off your purchase.
Have a wonderful weekend, and I'll see you around.